Thursday, July 16, 2009

wadufxup... 8 years tho... lol

so im not gonna state any names cause im still trynna figure some things out but
am i the only one who wonders what God has planned?
i mean, i've known this dude since i was little & here we are
grown as eva & we're just talking about feelings...
BUT 8 YEARS THOUGH? like seriously, eight? why did it take so long?
at first thats what i kept asking, over and over and over and over again.
but shiiiit, i used to play games. i had a nigga mentality when it came to relationships cause i was determined he was gone get hurt before i ever would; so maybe thats why it took 8 years... because at this point, he dont need nobody playing games with his emotions and im at the point where the games take too much energy, so why even bother? but like, there was no doubt in my mind that if i had the opportunity i'd talk to him; even after all these years. we hadnt talked, seen each other, NOTHING. and then out the blue, here he is texting me this, that, and the third and i was falling for it. not saying im dumb for it because he's sincere but its just like, am i getting my hopes up about something thats just temporary? i dont wanna look back 10 years from now and say "i finally had him." and thats it. i want to be with him 10 years from now looking back to when we got together. but hey! whatever the Lord has planned i will be happy with but these are my emotions tho.
& it didnt take long for the ily's to start so its just like ... damn.
i hope it lasts. its some shit he do i cant stand. and its prolly some shit i do he cant stand but we aint saying nothing yet.
but the thing that pulled me was when i told him about my attitude, he asked me to talk to him about anything i was upset about instead of saying fuck it and going on about my business. and how he told me he lost me once and he wasnt gonna lose me again... ahhh damn. either he running some smooth ass game or this is just the one im supposed to be with. but at the moment, imma choose the first option and try to stay as happy as possible. lol.
im no dummy but hey! yu only live once and that time is limited so do things in the spur of the moment. carry no regrets. stay happy. cause 8 years from now, it may be all worth the wait.

wadufxup... where are all the gentlemen?

so today, my buddy korey comes over to see me before he goes to new york and all... & i was really glad to see him.
korey knows i like him, and he knows i like him but today, he became a friend because of his actions.
when i first met korey im like, "ahh, he's alright." nothing really spectacular until he introduced himself.
"hi, how are you? my names korey & its a pleasure meeting you."
i was so shocked all i could do was smile; he immediately went from alright to cute. then he was talking to me about different things and he was so polite. then the way he put his hand on my back to move me out of the way was the best.
i mean other than the fact that when someone touches my lower back i get weak, but it was more of a kind gesture to move me out of harms way & THAT was what made me dizzy lol.
long story short, i wanted to give him my number 3 hours before he even asked for it. then one day he text me out the blue and we were talking about philosophy & psychology so im just like.... WoooooW!
it was amazing.
if yu see him... nah, i dont want nobody to see him. he's not even my man and im being selfish... lmao
but his swag is ridiculous. his maturity is remarkable.
his dreads are gorgeous. his smile is immaculate.
he's just a work of art. but, he's my friend.
and seeing him today, lifted my spirits because he's so cool
other than him joking the way i talk.
i mean, i know i can be country sometimes but damn. dont bring it to my attention all the time. but seeing him smile, made me get over it a whole lot faster.
and he kinda crossed the line by drinking my soda but it was flat so i didnt care; thats exactly what he gets... his fine ass.
yeah, he went from alright, to cute, to fine ass.
but trust me, its more than looks & clothes; he's beautiful inside and out.
& his tattoos... ahhhh! great God. they are wonderful. lol
thats enough cause ummmmm, he's just my friend.

but he's a gentleman. thats the moral of the story.
he's a rare catch. he should teach an etiquette class.